Distorted Thoughts

Not really...she was very factual about what I need to do and why this set back has happened. I haven't really been continuing to work on my recovery...When I think I'm fine and in control...I lose the control. But it all comes back to step one. Giving it to a high power (God)....that I'm not sure I can release that much control...I know I should but can I stop taking it back once I give it back. And even though I know it's wrong...I just have to do it!

she asked why don't I throw the hammer away....I don't know. It is easier to give it someone else then it is to just put it in the trash. Maybe that's because I have to have someone else to know...because if I do it myself only I know.