Distorted Thoughts

There is still the one thought running through my head that I haven't quite got it under control. I finished my obssession of counting and now I'm concern that my hair is falling out again. But the one thougth is "am I worthy" of all this attention, of being alive, of being who I am? I itch as a compulsion now even when I don't really need to itch. My neck muscles are so tight and knotted I'm constantly rubbing it...And I've made it to get my 60 day chip but how much did I want to punish my self on Friday.